I wanted to tear it up, but part of me couldn’t.

The part that remembered how it felt to once love him wondered if denying Jacob the chance to know his father would only create a new wound.

After weeks of soul-searching, I agreed to a supervised meeting at a nearby park. Jacob played on the swings while I stood watch. He was shy at first, hiding behind me, but when Mark gently pushed the swing, Jacob laughed – a clear, innocent sound that stirred something deep in me.

Over time, I allowed more visits. Mark never missed one. Rain or shine, he showed up – sometimes with a small book or toy, never overstepping, just trying to be present. Slowly, Jacob began to trust him.

I still couldn’t forgive Mark completely. The scars were too deep. But as I watched my son’s face light up, I understood something: this wasn’t about me anymore. It was about giving Jacob the choice to know his father.

Years later, when Jacob asked why his parents weren’t together, I told him the truth in simple words—that adults make mistakes, and love doesn’t always last the way it should. But I also told him his father loved him, even if it took time to show it.

And that became my balance – guarding my son’s heart while allowing him the space to build his own bond with the man who once shattered mine. It wasn’t forgiveness, not exactly. But it was peace. Hard-won, imperfect, and real.